Something

I'm reading so many blogs anonymously since I've joined Blogexplosion. I've gone through so many blogs. But, I didn't spend more than 5 minutes at one place. But, there is one blog where I spent almost an hour. And the best part is, I dont know why. Have a look at this blog. You will find nothing so-called-unique. But, ya! 'Mentioning 100 things about urself on ur blog' says so many things..isn't it...? The girl helped me to think about myself. She has written so many things like her favourite colour is gray(hex 333333).....isnt it cool...? I was thinking that can I list 100 thing about myself? I never thought like that. And I tried but it's almost impossible for me(Dont say me ,"Impossible itself says I m possible). So, I tried to match me with her. It's a very easy way to know about urself. Just match...If something matches then U know ur one charateristics and if something not matches then also U know why its not matching. U'll say ki it's madness. But this is the only word(mad) near to me. So, here is the similarities between me and that unknown Japanese girl.

• I have one younger sister.
• I love creating skins for my blog.
• I hate when people claim that they're fat and need to lose weight when they're actually not fat at all
• My blood type is A+.
• I don't have a middle name.
• I love photography.
• I love Adobe Photoshop.
• In school I like any class related to science.
• I hate history with a passion.
• I don't have any tattoos.
• I don't have any piercings.
• I've taught myself HTML and CSS.
• I'm improving my skills with HTML and CSS.
• I think eyes are fascinating.
• I love cheetahs.
• I procrastinate too much too often.
• Whenever my computer is on, it automatically checks my e-mail every 5 minutes.
• I am hard to impress.
• I dislike loathe Microsoft Internet Explorer.
• Instead of IE, I mostly use Safari and Firefox.
• I'm an optimist.
• I've never broken a limb.
• I've never colored my hair.
• I am NOT a girly girl.(I'm not a girl at all:)))
• I can't sleep well with socks on.
• I hate the majority of vegetables.
• I hate wide-ruled paper. I prefer college-ruled.
• I hate haircuts.
• My favorite season is winter.
• I prefer a small group of close friends to a large group of people.
• I absolutely hate it when people tYpE lIkE tHiS.
• I'm not a big fan of reality shows on TV.
• I can be pretty obsessive at times....
• I'm addicted to BlogExplosion.

Movie time

I've watched so many movies these days. Let me list some of the recently watched movies:

• Mumbai express
• Back to the future I, II, II
• Star wars episode I, II, III
• Kya cool hain hum
• Mai aisa hi hoon
• Waqt
• Socha na tha
• padosan
• xXx
• 36th Chamber of Sholin
• Orgazmo
• Mujhse shaadi karogi
• Finding neverland
• HazaroN khwahishe aisi
• Company
• Meet the Fockers
• 13 going on 30
  

Diplomacy

I was sitting on my bed just watching my computer. My keyboard was not working at that time. So, I was using keyboard of one of the guy who came here from NIT suratkal. I was staring on the screen and suddenly screen saver appeared. I wonder, how many screen savers are installed on my computer.( I'm using Suse linux 9.3). So, I daily watch different screensavers. But, this one was special. So, many quotes were moving. And I noticed one about diplomacy. It says,

"Diplomacy is to say 'nice doggy' until you find a rock."

What a wonderful line. Isnt it.....? I was thinking about the people around me. Most of them are diplomats. Who are continuosly searching for a stone to hit me. Well! In starting, everyone says me, "nice doggy"!!!

Wikipedia says,

In an informal or social sense, diplomacy is the employment of tact to gain strategic advantage, one set of tools being the phrasing of statements in a non-confrontational, or social manner.

"tact to gain strategic advantage" : there are two keywords here: 'tact' and 'strategic'. Tact is a nice word. If you have patience, read this or escape the block.

Tact is a careful consideration of the feelings and values of another so as to create harmonious relationships with a reduced potential for conflict or offense. Tact is a virtue.

An example of tact would be relating to someone a potentially embarrassing detail of their appearance or demeanor without causing them distress.

Tact is a form of interpersonal diplomacy. Tact is the ability to induce change or communicate hurtful information without offending through the use of consideration, compassion, kindness and reason.

A tactful person can tell you something you don't want to hear and you will be thankful for the information when they are finished.

But the word 'strategic advantage' is a little special here. To make a plan for profit...If friendship is concered with it, then I abhor it. friends are just friends. And I think, One should be very clear in identifying a diplomat and a friend. I always loose at this point. Sometimes I misunderstood a tactful person (making plans) with my friends. I must be careful. And If you are reading this then, I suggest you to look around and differenciate among friends and diplomats.

Wonderful lines

Ya rab yeh kya ke jis ke liye
din mein bhi sapne dekhe the
aur neend se nata khoya hai.
chhup ke meri in bahon mein
woh aur kisi ki yadon mein
kal behadd toot ke roya hai.

From orkut by 'sabbi'. see original here

Title jaroori hai....?

Jaise hi compose-blog window khula...mere dimaag me ye khayal aaya ki kya title jaroori hai....? roj roj ek naya title...kyun...? Kuchh to importance hoga hi. Perhaps ye isliye hai ki log kewal title parh ke samajh leN ki isme kya likha gaya hoga...? Aur phir baki hissa chahe to parheN chahe to chhod deN. Hah! Is there anyone in this world who can give a nice title to any article....? Agar title me hi puri baat samahit ki jaa sakti to log pura blog kyun likhte....? Kewal title hi likh dete(:D). Anyway...jane do bhai!!! kyun title ki jaan loon...?[:))]

Aaj maine dawayeN kharid li. oops! yaad aaya ki mai khana bhool gaya.....! wait....! mai dawa kha ke aata hoon......! hmm...ek dawa nahi mili market me. Aur pata hai....syrup bahut achha tha...mera man kiya ki pura aaj hi pi jaoon. Lekin uske bottle pe warning likha tha ki "jyada pina matlab...u know what".:))

Maine CEP ka registration to kara liya hai but classes subah 9:00 baje se hoti hai...so, I missed the first class. Shayad kal chala jaoonga. Isliye aaj jaldi sona hai. Lekin chance kum lagta hai kyunki ek movie dekhne ki bhi ichha ho rahi hai. Are haan! mai batana to bhool hi gaya.....kal raat maine ek movie dekhi.."finding neverland".......bahut hi achhi movie hai. you must watch. Pata nahi aaj kaun-si dekhoonga....dekhne ke baad batata hoon:).

Aaj pure din (project ke liye) maine HTML aur Java-script ke manuals tatol dale.....but, abhi tak wo idea nahi mila jisse mera uddeshya pura ho jaye. Perhaps, I'll use SQL or XML depending on the situation. uff..! Why I'm writing this here...? Dekha..! Project ka kitna bura asar pada hai...?[:D]

Aur wahi; usual chat sessions with vineet, Neha, dahlia, aniruddha. Subah me Mudrika bhi online mil gayi aur phir dopahar me shiksha bhi. Kafi baatein hui... mera man ab kuchh shaant hua hai.

Ek baat to batana bhool hi gaya. Mai aur yashwant ne milker ek naatak plan kiya tha. Last night I finished the character sketches.....So, I'm writing the play. May be ki mai kabhi use stage de sakoon.

Aur jate jate ek tasveer dekh lijiye. Mujhe bahut pahle ek mail me kisi ne bheja tha aur phir se kisi ne bheja. tasveer ho sakta hai bahutOn ne dekhi hui ho...per jinhone nahi dekhi unke liye maine apne photolog pe rakha hai...click here. Aap kitne bhi kathor hriday kyun na ho...yah tasveer dekh-ker aapka hriday jaroor piglega; yah mera dava hai. Is tasveer ko 1994 me Pulitzer Award mila tha.

Fine but not fine

Last day I went to the doctor. My X-ray(chest) report was OK. Today my blood report(something called CBC) came. He said there is a little problem but nothing to worry about. So, I'm fine. He suggested me some medicine and all....and I'vent even bought them. I'll buy 2mrw, I guess.

Last evening, I was in a temple(Ganesh's). In general, mai mandir ke bheeter nahi jata. Last time, mai mandir ke bheetar kab gaya tha, mujhe yaad nahi. Aur gaya bhi to uff...500 log mere aage line me the....aur jab mai mandir se nikal raha tha to kareeb 1500 log to line me honge hi. (thanx to my jeejaji....jinke chalte hum jaldi pahoonch gaye..kewal 500 log hi the...:D)

Aur jab mai wahan se laut raha tha to mere papa ka call aaya. He wants me to come home. Now, I also wants to go home. But, I'm envolved with ETHOS project and also I've registered for CEP course(c++) here. [Thanx to neera who have done registration for me...as I was out of campus...out of campus bole to...didi ke yahan:)]

Aaj wahan se wapas aa gaya. back to internet world....the virtual but my very own world.

Aur haan! Have I mentioned ki aaj maine bahut dinoN ke baad cooking ki(didi ke yahan)....guess what did I cook.....? I'm afraid, most of my friends will be angry...Ya! That was 'chicken'.

Not feeling well

Meri khasi bahut barh gayi hai...! maine aaj jeejaji ko phone karke bol diya. So, may be ki kal doctor ke paas jaoonga. I always hate to go to the doctors. I'm afraid about my disease. I guess that I know this disease. This is not incurable but diffcult. If my fear is right then may be I'll have to leave one semester of my study....may be even more....! Now, you'll ask what kind of fear...? I'm afraid I cant tell you. There is something in the world that I dont want to share with unknowns. And I dont think its wrong.

I dont give a damn to my physical illness. (I'll not give even if I'm dying...'coz i know man is mortal)....but I suffered alot of mental pain today. Some of my net friends are behaving strangely. May be I'm one of the cause. The feeling of friendship and love...aur wo bhi internet relation hamesha meri samjh se bahar raha hai. hum wo jaante hain jo hame bataya jata hai....humare bare me log wo jaante hain jo hum batate hain....aur hum wo batate hain jo hum batana chate hain....its like projecting an image! how true the image is....no one knows. You'll say that its all about trust but in this type pf relationship we even try to project the trust. Who is a good narrator(projector..!!!) always wins here. 'Wins' matlab he/she is more successful in distant relationship. And one who cant express himself/herself well always loose.

Mai bhi kya...win aur loose ki baatein ke raha hoon. lekin ek baat jo important hai wo ye ki kya aise rishtoN ka bhavisya hota hai....? kya hum sachmuch ek dusre pe complete faith rakh paate hain....? Shaayad nahi...! I even feel that someone often uses you to project his/her image. And most of the persons are playing with each other. You wanna play.........? well! I can play.

But, not every relation is like playing with each others emotions(projections). Why I'm so confident....? 'Coz I know...'Coz I feel. And If only I can feel then also not-every-relation is a right phrase to use.

Kuchh purani kavitayeN

I was reading my old threads at Orkut. Here is some old poems.

abhi itna nahi hua hoon kamjor main,
ki chhupa na paoon dil ki bekarari apni.
kabu na rakh paoon is tanha dil per,
aadat itni bhi nahi maine bigadi apni.
aur phir koi aake tor de rishta apna
aisi bhi kachhi nahi yari apni,
mat karo mujhko shareek khushiyon me
muhe to chahiye bus gam me hissedari apni.

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vada ker doon aur ker ke bhool jaoon
nahi kachha itna bhi vada apna.
yaad rakh loon per use nibha na paoon,
nahi kamjor hua itna irada apna.
aur hai vada nahi kuchh bhi kahoonga
bhale chehra hata, masum aur sada apna.
meri maut bhi bane khusi, taiyar hoon mai
bus khayal phir rakhna jara jyada apna.

Got room to live

Finally, today I got room to live. So, My address is now H4/118 instead of H4/36.

Now work on 'Ethos' is going with a great pace(with respect to me). I'm also back with blog:). Previously I was not able to find computer at the moment I waned to write. So, I guess...Today onwards I'll be regular here.

Kal IIT Mains ka exam tha. Exam se nikalte chehroN ko mai dekh raha tha. Kuchh log aisekhush the mano unhe jeevan me her cheez mil gayi ho....aur kuchh aise udaas jaise unka jeevan vyartha ho gaya. I was remembering my situation of last year JEE mains exam.

Last three nights were good enough to mention here. Actually I've started talking with a girl 'Nidhi'. We are friends (I suppose) and its fun. Fun part is she calls me with her dad's cell.:)

Today one very very strange thing happened. Suddenly I got a message from Donaon Y! msgr saying "Hi...how r?"..although hamara chat jyada der nahi chala....and she said ki we are not friends now...but phir bhi, mujhe bahut khushi hui ki she initiated the talk....and ya! I said her sorry!....Oh God! cheejoN ko pahle jaisa ker do. Give my friend back. I need her. I need my every friend I lost.

Work on Ethos started.

So, finally I started working on the project. Although I havent any room to live here. I'm leaving in a senior's room.(Aashish anand...He is from my school Netarhat School). My routine is very simple now-a-days. Usually I'm sleeping at 5:oo AM and waking up after 3:00 PM. No breakfast, no lunch....direct dinner in canteen. Life is so cool right now. I'm watching the movies I wanted to watch. I'm sitting on lake-side for hours. I'm just hanging around and freaking...:). Only one serious work....the Ethos project. Today I started(& completed) the help part.(The assignment given to me). For those who dont know about Ethos: It is a web-portal being developed by IIT students for communication between students, faculty, alumni of all the IITs along with persons of major industries. Fortunately, I'm also a part of the team. Thanks to vikas verma, who gave me the opportunity to work. And thanks to anshul, who told me about this project and helped me in being a part of the team.

And ya! last day was one of the rare days without any phone call to anyone. Hah! I'm expecting so many calls today but result is zero. Utkarsh, mudrika, sunil saini, neha, yashwant, neera. They all are enjoying their life as I'm enjoying. May the force with them.

Socha na tha.

"Socha na tha": I've just seen this movie. This is 5:40 AM. so, isnt it obvious that I didnt slept this night...? Movie is wonderful. May be...My mood was 'exactly' ready for this type of sweet love story. Uff...I am remembering my mood in night(when talking on phone)...and now, huh! I'm fine. (aur ye talking to phone......Not true..I wasnt talking I was trying to talk.)

I think it happens sometimes that when I'm talking with my dearest person(s) then I become silent. And at the last moment, Mai baatein shuru karta hoon. Kal raat aisa hi hua. Mujhe bahut sari baatein karni thi(waise hamesha karni hoti hai)....and I was silent. Before the call I usually have so many things to say.....and after the talk i usually have everything unsaid. 'coz during call, mai kuchh bolta hi nahi. Last night!!! can anyone guess the reason....?

When someone is with you.....when someone is talking to you...then u dont have the fear to loose.......coz u r with him/her. Aur us pal aap kho se jate ho. But at the last moment...suddenly u realise that u r indeed going to loose......going to loose something very important. Aur isliye ant me baaton ki tivrata badh jaati hai. Last night!!!

I know ki whatever I'm writing here is hardly understandable by anyone. But, i know what I'm doing. I'm writing this for only one person. And I know that the person is intelligent enough to read the not-written parts.

When you are writing something then definately you are going to omit some portions 'coz some things are obvious for you. But the reader cant interpret exactly what you want to say. Reason is simple the thing you thought is obvious may not be obvious for everyone else. So, Is tthis writer's fault...? May be.....I know I'm not a good writer. So, may be its my fault. But, In general Its not alwyas writer's fault. Words are not enough to say all the things. are they....?

Aur haan! aajkal mujhe gussa aane laga hai. Its starnge....is it...? Nope!!! Its not. I'm human...so gussa, irshya, nafrat..koi bhi bhavna mujhme aa sakti hai. Let me think about it, Why I'm so...? Is it an indication that I'm becoming more possesive....? If no....then what else the reason...? If yes...then is it my fault...? So many things. I'm laughing at myself.....possessive...word hi aisa hai...hasi to aayegi naa!!! heh! In fact, I should not expect anything...and I'm becoming so-called-possessive.....hah! dude, u have nothing...what are you possessing...? No one is commited wtih me and still.....! I know the situation...and still......! Arey yaar! ye confusing topic hai. Ispe likhne lagoon to agli raat tak bhi khatam na ho.

So, leave it. I dont want to impose any thiing. I dont want to influence the nature(I know I cant and I'm saying that I also dont want) ....I'm praying for a favour......But, I want to be with flow....May the flow is not opposite of my love and happiness. Let destiny play his game.

Are haan! movie ke bare me ek baat to batana bhool hi gaya....If you are reading this line then I've a suggestion for you...definately watch the movie "socha na tha".....aur definately matlab....definately. Aur jab yahan tak aa gaye then you diserve to know one secret....ki aaj mai yah movie dekhte dekhte ro diya! titanic ke baad dusri love story...jo mujhe acchi lagi.

Well...! In the end I'm confused.....Good night kahne wala the kyunki ab mai sone jaa raha hoon. But, suddenly I realised that Its 6:15 AM. So, good morning.

Anger

Anger always comes from frustrated expectations. After a long time I felt this feeling 'anger'. I tried to escape from expectations 'coz I know they will endup like this. Why should I expect anything from anyone? Just because I'm a human...!!!???

Physiologically, it simply doesn't matter whether your anger is justified or not. The body doesn't make moral judgements about feelings; it just responds.

A chinese proverb says: "If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow." And I'm not patient at the moment. I'm ready for hundred days of sorrow. I spent most of the last few days thinking about tears. The tears; I felt in someone's eyes. I dont know what happened but I can c it in my eyes too.

Expectations dude! expectations.

wikipedia says about expectations:

"In the case of uncertainty, expectation is what is considered the most likely to happen. An expectation may or may not be realistic. A less advantageous result gives rise to the emotion of disappointment. If something happens that is not at all expected it is a surprise. An expectation about the behavior or performance of another person, expressed to that person, may have the nature of a strong request, or an order."

And about anger, it says:

"Anger is an emotion of displeasure, usually regarding an act or idea of another person or organisation. Sometimes a person feels angry at him- or herself for having acted stupidly or badly, etc. Anger involves a sense of wrongedness, outrage, frustration, irritation, or violent conflict."

Heck! I'm not surprised about my situation. I'm not surprised if someone is chatting with 6 others. I'm surprised 'coz among those 6 I'm not the one. I thought that I've not great expectations. I didn't want to be the one but I want to be among others. Hah! I was afraid of expecting more. I didnt know that expecting anything(no matter how less it is) can cause a pain. I'm in my journey of my life. I'm learning......Thanx for all those who r helping me to learn the truth about life.

"aabhari hoon mai un sabka,

de gaye vyatha ka jo prasad.

jis-jis se path per sneh mila,

us us rahi ko dhanyawaad!"

नेहा अानंद

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raat aadhi khich ker...

Nadi ke dweep

Shabd mere! sote kyun ho?

shabd mere...! sote kyun ho...?

neer ke sang-sang nayan se tum nikalte
hath thame tum hriday ka, sath chalte
swapn banke tum meri neenden udate
aur dhadkan ki dhamak per gungunate.

roothna hi hai jo mujhse, to bata do
prem wala beej tum bote kyun ho...?
shabd mere...! sote kyun ho...?

aankheN meri thak chuki, ashru ke aaweg se
dekh lo ab dil mera dhadak raha kis weg se.
mai andhere me akela der raha hoon
maut aayi hi nahi, per mer raha hoon.

aao do sanjeevani, mujko jila do
khud pe rakkho viwas, khote kyun ho...?
shabd mere...! sote kyun ho...?

meri tripti ki nahi parwah tumko
apne man ki bhi nahi hai thah tumko
sun lo jagat ka geet aur kuchh tum bhi gao
aao jara tum geet ban duniya me chhao.

geet banke aa na paye, to batao
aashuoN me jism dubote kyun ho....?
shabd mere...! sote kyun ho...?

Kya cool hain hum

I watched night show of the movie 'kya cool hain hum'. Time-pass ke liye achhi hai.
I did nothing today. But ya! I'm coooooooooooooooooooooooooooool.

Mujhe wo yaad aata hai...

I found this poem on orkut. Its by 'Shabeena'. I liked it so thought to post here.

barasti ankh ke ansoo koi jab pyar se choomey
kisi ke pyar ka saya mere charon taraf ghoomey
koi chehra khyalon mein kahin jab muskurata hai
mujhey woh yaad ata hai

milan ki akhri umeed bhi jab dagmagati ho
diye ki aag ke jaisi hawa se larkharati ho
koi tooti hui umeed ko phir jorr jata hai
mujhey woh yaad ata hai

main usko bhool jaoon gi kabhi yeh faisla kar loon
agar woh samney aye to apna dil kara karr loon
magar jab bhi merey dil ko dharakna yaad ata hai
mujhey woh yaad ata hai

kabhi yadon ke jungle mein hansi bass gum si ho jaye
sabhi wadon ke rangon ki chamak madham si ho jaye
koi chupkey se jeevan mein wohi rung phir se lata hai
mujhey woh yaad ata hai

Link to original

Mirza Ghalib : Deewan-e-ghalib

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har ek baat pe kehte ho tum ke 'too kya hai' ?
tumheeN kaho ke yeh andaaz-e-guftgoo kya hai ?

ragoN meiN dauDte firne ke ham naheeN qaayal
jab aaNkh hee se na Tapka to fir lahoo kya hai ?

chipak raha hai badan par lahoo se pairaahan
hamaaree jeb ko ab haajat-e-rafoo kya hai ?

jalaa hai jicm jahaaN dil bhee jal gaya hoga
kuredate ho jo ab raakh, justjoo kya hai ?

rahee na taaqat-e-guftaar, aur agar ho bhee
to kis ummeed pe kahiye ke aarzoo kya hai ?

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miltee hai KHoo-e-yaar se naar iltihaab meiN
kaafir hooN gar na miltee ho raahat 'azaab meiN

kab se hooN, kya bataaooN jahaan-e-KHaraab meiN?
shab haaye hijr ko bhee rakhooN gar hisaab meiN

taa fir na intezaar meiN neeNd aaye 'umr bhar
aane ka 'ahad kar gaye aaye jo KHwaab meiN

qaasid ke aate-aate KHat ik aur likh rakhooN
maiN jaanta hooN jo woh likhenge jawaab meiN

mujh tak kab unkee bazm meiN aata tha daur-e-jaam
saaqee ne kuchch mila na diya ho sharaab meiN

jo munkir-e-wafa ho fareb us pe kya chale?
kyooN badGHumaaN hooN dost se dushman ke baab meiN?

maiN muztarib hooN wasl meiN KHauf-e-raqeeb se
Daala hai tumko weham ne kis pech-o-taab meiN

mai aur haz'z-e-wasl, KHudaa_saaz baat hai
jaaN nazr denee bhool gaya iztiraab meiN

hai tevaree chaDee huee andar naqaab ke
hai ik shikan paDee huee tarf-e-naqaab meiN

laakhauN lagaav, ik churaana nigaah ka
laakhauN banaav, ik bigaaDna itaab meiN

woh naala_dil meiN KHas ke baraabar jagah na paaye
jis naale se shigaaf paDe aaftaab meiN

woh sehar muddaa talbee meiN na kaam aaye
jis sehar se safina ravaaN ho saraab meiN

'GHalib' chutee sharaab, par ab bhee kabhee-kabhee
peeta hooN roz-e-abr -o- shab-e-maahtaab meiN

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aah ko chaahiye ik 'umr asar hone tak
kaun jeeta hai teree zulf ke sar hone tak?

daam har mauj meiN hai halqa-e-sad_kaam-e-nahaNg
dekhaiN kya guzre hai qatre pe guhar hone tak

aashiqee sabr talab aur tamanna betaab
dil ka kya rang karooN KHoon-e-jigar hone tak?

ham ne maana ke taGHaful na karoge, lekin
KHaak ho jaayeNge ham tumko KHabar hone tak

partav-e-khur se hai shabnam ko fana'a ki taaleem
maiN bhee hooN ik inaayat ki nazar hone tak

yak_nazar besh naheeN fursat-e-hastee GHaafil
garmi-e-bazm hai ik raqs-e-sharar hone tak

GHam-e-hastee ka 'Asad' kis'se ho juz marg ilaaz
shamma'a har rang meiN jaltee hai sahar hone tak

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hazaaroN KHwahishaiN 'eisee ke har KHwahish pe dam nikle
bohot nikle mere armaaN lekin phir bhee kam nikle

Dare kyooN mera qaatil kya rahega uskee gardan par
wo KHooN, jo chashm-e-tar se 'umr bhar yooN dam_ba_dam nikle

nikalna KHuld se aadam ka sunte aayaiN haiN lekin
bohot be_aabru hokar tere kooche se ham nikle

bharam khul jaaye zaalim tere qaamat ki daraazee ka
agar is turra-e-pur_pech-o-KHam ka pech-o-KHam nikle

magar likhwaaye koee usko KHat, to hamse likhawaaye
huee subah aur ghar se kaan par rakhkar qalam nikle

huee is daur meiN mansoob mujhse baada_aashaamee
phir aaya wo zamaana, jo jahaaN se jaam-e-jam nikle

huee jinse tavaqqo KHastagee kee daad paane kee
wo hamse bhee ziyaada KHasta-e-teGH-e-sitam nikle

mohabbat meiN naheeN hai farq jeene aur marne kaa
usee ko dekh kar jeete haiN jis kaafir pe dam nikle

zara kar jor seene par ki teer-e-pursitam nikle
jo wo nikle to dil nikle, jo dil nikle to dam nikle

KHuda ke waaste parda na kaabe se uThaa zaalim
kaheeN 'eisa na ho yaaN bhee wohee kaafir sanam nikle

kahaaN maiKHaane ka darwaaza 'GHalib' aur kahaaN waaiz
par itana jaante haiN kal wo jaata tha ke ham nikle

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na tha kuchch to KHuda tha, kuchch na hota to KHuda hota
duboya mujhko hone ne, na hota maiN to kya hota?

huaa jab GHam se yooN behis to GHam kya sar ke kaTne ka
na hota gar juda tan se to zaanooN par dhaRa hota

huee muddat ke 'GHalib' mar gaya par yaad aata hai
wo har ek baat pe kehana, ke yooN hota to kya hota?

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zulmat_kade meiN mere shab-e-GHam ka josh hai
ik shamma'a hai daleel-e-sahar, so KHamosh hai

nai muzda-e-wisaal na nazzaara-e-jamaal
muddat huee ki aashtee-e-chashm-o-gosh hai

mai ne kiya hai, husn-e-KHud_aara ko be_hijaab
'ai shauq, yaaN ijaazat-e-tasleem-e-hosh hai

gauhar ko ikd-e-gardan-e-KHubaaN meiN dekhna
kya auj par sitaara-e-gauhar_farosh hai

deedaar, waada, hausla, saaqee, nigaah-e-mast
bazm-e-KHayaal maikada-e-be_KHarosh hai

'ei taaza waaridan-e-bisaat-e-hawa-e-dil
zinhaar gar tumhaiN hawas-e-na-o-nosh hai

dekho mujhe jo deeda-e-ibrat_nigaah ho
meree suno jo gosh-e-naseehat_niyosh hai

saaqee ba_jalwa dushman-e-imaan-o-aagahee
mutrib ba_naGHma rahzan-e-tamkeen-o-hosh hai

ya shab ko dekhte the; ki har gosha-e-bisaat
daamaan-e-baaGHbaan-o-kaf-e-gul_farosh hai

lutf-e-KHiraam-e-saaqee-o-zauq-e-sada-e-chang
yeh jannat-e-nigaah woh firdaus-e-gosh hai

ya subh dam jo dekhiye aakar to bazm meiN
nai woh suroor-o-soz na josh-o-KHarosh hai

daaGH-e-firaaq-e-sohabat-e-shab kee jalee hooee
ik shamma`a reh gaee hai so wo bhee KHamosh hai

aate haiN GHaib se ye mazaameeN KHayaal meiN
'GHalib', sareer-e-KHaama nawa-e-sarosh hai

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dil hee to hai na sang-o-KHisht dard se bhar na aaye kyoN?
royeNge ham hazaar baar, koee hameiN sataaye kyoN?

dair naheeN, haram naheeN, dar naheeN, aastaaN naheeN
baiTHe haiN rehguzar pe ham, GHair hameiN uTHaaye kyoN?

jab woh jamaal-e-dil_faroz, soorat-e-meher-e-neem_roz
aap hee ho nazzaara_soz, parde meiN muNh chupaaye kyoN?

dashna-e-GHamza jaaN_sitaaN, naawak-e-naaz be_panaah
tera hee aks-e-ruKH sahee, saamne tere aaye kyoN?

qaid-e-hayaat-o-band-e-GHam asl meiN dono ek haiN
maut se pehle aadmee GHam se nijaat paaye kyoN?

husn aur uspe husn_zan rah gayee bulhawas ki sharm
apne pe 'eitmaad hai, GHair ko aazmaaye kyoN?

waaN wo GHuroor-e-iz'z-o-naaz yaaN yeh hijaab-e-paas-e-waz'a
raah meiN ham mile kahaaN, bazm meiN wo bulaaye kyoN?

haaN wo naheeN KHuda_parast, jaao wo be_wafa sahee
jisko ho deen-o-dil 'azeez, uskee galee meiN jaaye kyoN?

'GHalib'-e-KHasta ke baGHair kaun se kaam band haiN?
roiye zaar-zaar kya, keejiye haay-haay kyoN?

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woh firaaq aur woh wisaal kahaaN?
woh shab-o-roz-o-maah-o-saal kahaaN?

fursat-e-kaarobaar-e-shauq kise?
zauq-e-nazzaraa-e-jamaal kahaaN?

dil to dil wo dimaaGH bhee na rahaa
shor-e-sauda-e-KHatt-o-KHaal kahaaN?

thee woh ik shaKHs ke tasavvur se
ab woh raanaai-e-KHayaal kahaaN?

'eisa aasaaN naheeN lahoo rona
dil meiN taaqat jigar meiN haal kahaaN?

hamse chooTa qamaar_KHaana-e-ishq
waaN jo jawaiN, girah meiN maal kahaaN?

fikr-e-duniyaaN meiN sar khapaata hooN
maiN kahaaN aur ye wabaal kahaaN?

muzmahil ho gaye quwa'a 'GHalib'
wo anaasir meiN 'eitdaal kahaaN?

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baazeechaa-e-atfaal hai duniya mere aage
hota hai shab-o-roz tamaasha mere aage

ik khel hai auraNg-e-sulemaaN mere nazdeek
ik baat hai 'eijaz-e-maseeha mere aage

juz naam naheeN soorat-e-aalam mujhe manzoor
juz waham naheeN hastee-e-ashiya mere aage

hota hai nihaaN gard meiN sehara mere hote
ghisata hai jabeeN KHaak pe dariya mere aage

mat pooch ke kya haal hai mera tere peeche?
too dekh ke kya rang tera mere aage

sach kahte ho, KHudbeen-o-KHud_aaraa na kyoN hooN?
baiTha hai but-e-aainaa_seemaa mere aage

phir dekhiye andaaz-e-gul_afshaani-e-guftaar
rakh de koee paimaanaa-o-sahba mere aage

nafrat ka gumaaN guzare hai, maiN rashk se guzaraa
kyoN kar kahooN, lo naam na uska mere aage

imaaN mujhe roke hai jo khiNche hai mujhe kufr
ka'aba mere peeche hai kaleesa mere aage

aashiq hooN, pe maashooq_farebee hai mera kaam
MajnooN ko bura kehti hai Laila mere aage

KHush hote haiN par wasl meiN yoN mar naheeN jaate
aayee shab-e-hijaraaN ki tamanna mere aage

hai mauj_zan ik qulzum-e-KHooN, kaash, yahee ho
aata hai abhee dekhiye kya-kya mere aage

go haath ko jumbish naheeN aaNhoN meiN to dam hai
rehne do abhee saaGHar-o-meena mere aage

ham_pesha-o-ham_masharb-o-ham_raaz hai mera
'GHalib' ko bura kyoN kaho achchaa mere aage!

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ye na thee hamaaree qismat ke wisaal-e-yaar hota
agar aur jeete rehte yahee intezaar hota

tere waade par jiye ham to ye jaan jhooT jaanaa
ke KHushee se mar na jaate agar 'eitabaar hota

teree naazukee se jaana ki bandha tha 'ehed_booda
kabhee too na toD sakta agar oostuwaar hota

koee mere dil se pooche tere teer-e-neemkash ko
ye KHalish kahaaN se hotee jo jigar ke paar hota

ye kahaaN ki dostee hai ke bane haiN dost naaseh
koee chaarasaaz hota, koee GHamgusaar hota

rag-e-sang se Tapakta wo lahoo ki fir na thamta
jise GHam samajh rahe ho, ye agar sharaar hota

GHam agarche jaaN_gulis hai, pe kahaaN bachaiN ke dil hai
GHam-e-ishq gar na hota, GHam-e-rozgaar hota

kahooN kis se maiN ke kya hai, shab-e-GHam buree bala hai
mujhe kya bura tha marna ? agar ek baar hota

hue mar ke ham jo ruswa, hue kyoN na GHarq-e-dariya
na kabhee janaaza uThata, na kaheeN mazaar hota

use; kauN dekh sakta ki yagaana hai wo yaktaa
jo dooee ki boo bhee hotee to kaheeN do chaar hota

ye masaail-e-tasawwuf, ye tera bayaaN 'GHalib' !
tujhe ham walee samajhate, jo na baada_KHwaar hota

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husn-e-mah, garche ba_haNgaam-e-kamaal achcha hai
us'se mera mah-e-KHursheed-e-jamaal achcha hai

bosa dete naheeN aur dil pe hai har lahja nigaah
jee meiN kehte haiN, muft aaye to maal achcha hai

aur baazaar se le aaye agar TooT gaya
saaGHar-e-jam se mera jaam-e-sifaal achcha hai

be_talab daiN to maza usme siwa milta hai
woh gada jisko na ho KHoo-e-sawaal achcha hai

unke dekhe se jo aa jaatee hai muNh par raunaq
woh samajhte haiN ke beemaar ka haal achcha hai

dekhiye paate haiN ushshaaq butoN se kya faiz?
ik birahaman ne kaha hai, ke yeh saal achcha hai

ham_suKHan teshe ne farhaad ko sheereeN se kiya
jis tarah ka bhee kisee meiN ho kamaal achcha hai

qatra dariya meiN jo mil jaaye to dariya ho jaaye
kaam achchaa hai woh, jiska ma'aal achcha hai

KHijr SultaaN ko rakhe KHaaliq-e-akbar sar_sabz
shaah ke baaGH meiN yeh taaza nihaal achcha hai

hamko ma'aloom hai jannat ki haqeeqat lekin
dil ke KHush rakhne ko, 'GHalib' yeh KHayaal achcha hai

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sab kahaaN kuchh laalaa-o-gul mein numaayaaN ho gayeen
Khaak men kyaa suuraten hongii ki pinhaaN ho gayeen

yaad thii hamako bhii rangaa rang bazmaaraaiiyaaN
lekin ab naqsh-o-nigaar-e-taaq-e-nisiyaaN ho gayeen

thiin banaatunnaash-e-garduuN din ko parde men nihaaN
shab ko unake jii men kyaa aaii ki uriyaaN ho gayeen

qaid men yaaquub ne lii go na yuusuf kii Khabar
lekin aaNkhen rauzan-e-diivaar-e-zindaaN ho gayeen

sab raqiibon se ho.n naaKhush, par zanaan-e-misr se
hai zulaiKhaa Khush ke mahv-e-maah-e-kanaaN ho gayeen

juu-e-KhuuN aa.Nkho.n se bahane do ki hai shaam-e-firaaq
main ye samajhuuNgaa ke shamaen ho farozaaN ho gayeen

in pariizaadon se lenge Khuld men ham intaqaam
qudarat-e-haq se yahii huuren agar waaN ho gayeen

neend usakii hai, dimaaG usakaa hai, raaten usakii hain
terii zulfen jisake baazuu par parishaaN ho gayeen

main chaman men kyaa gayaa, goyaa dabistaaN khul gayaa
bul-bulen sun kar mere naale, Gazal_KhvaaN ho gayeen

vo nigaahen kyuuN huii jaatii hain yaarab dil ke paar
jo merii kotaahii-e-qismat se mizshgaaN ho gayeen

bas ki rokaa main ne aur siine men ubharen pai ba pai
merii aahen baKhiyaa-e-chaak-e-gariibaaN ho gayeen

waaN gayaa bhii main to unakii gaaliyon kaa kyaa javaab
yaad thii jitanii duaaen, sarf-e-darbaaN ho gayeen

jaaNfizaa hai baadaa, jisake haath men jaam aa gayaa
sab lakiiren haath kii goyaa rag-e-jaaN ho gayeen

ham muvahihad hain, hamaaraa kesh hai tark-e-ruusuum
millaten jab miT gayeen, ajzaa-e-iimaaN ho gayeen

ranj se Khuugar huaa insaaN to miT jaataa hai ranj
mushkilen mujh par paDi itanii ke aasaaN ho gayeen

yuuN hii gar rotaa rahaa 'Ghalib', to ae ahl-e-jahaaN
dekhanaa in bastiyon ko tum ki viiraaN ho gayeen

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dil-e-naadaaN tujhe huaa kya hai?
aaKHir is dard kee dawa kya hai

ham haiN mushtaaq aur woh bezaar
ya ilaahee ! yeh maajra kya hai?

maiN bhee muNh meiN zabaan rakhta hooN
kaash ! poocho ki "muddaa kya hai"?

jab ki tujh bin naheeN koee maujood
fir ye hangaama, 'ei KHuda ! kya hai

ye paree chehara log kaise haiN?
GHamza-o-ishwa-o-'adaa kya hai?

shikan-e-zulf-e-ambaree kyoN hai?
nigah-e-chashm-e-soorma sa kya hai?

sabja-o-gul kahaaN se aaye haiN?
abr kya cheez hai, hawa kya hai?

hamko unse wafa ki hai ummeed
jo naheeN jaante wafa kya hai

"haaN bhala kar tera bhala hoga"
aur darvesh kee sada kya hai?

jaan tum par nisaar karta hooN
maiN naheeN jaanata duaa kya hai

maiNe maana ki kuchch naheeN 'GHalib'
muft haath aaye to bura kya hai ?

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Dance my beloved dance

Dance My beloved! Dance!
This may be a last chance.
And I'm sure it is last chance. Next year this time I'll be involved with some kind of project...next to next year I'll have to go for practical training......and in final year of B.Tech.....hah! How can I be free in final year. After that...I'll enter in the so-called-real world. I'll enter in the Matrix.
So, Dance My beloved! Dance! This is my last chance!

"Rhythm in the feet music in the mind
Swaying like a tree in the night wind
Music plays as loud as you can hear
Close eyes dear there is no one near"
hah! I'm playing music as loud as I can. Can you hear....? And I've closed my eyes. No one is near...but hey! why I'm saying this...? My beloved is not listening....! No one is near and so my beloved. My beloved.....Do you love me...? Sometimes I doubt about my beloved's love. Sometimes I doubt about my understanding of love. And sometimes I doubt about the concept of love.
My music is useless without you...no matter how loud I'm playing. It doesnt mean I'm not dancing...there is rhythm in my feet. Have you ever felt ths music in your mind...? I'm wating for you....and in this 'intezaar' I'm dancing......
I dont want to dance forever but I know, I'll........

Some Hindi Classic Poems

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Raat

I've gone to prithvi theatre today with Anshul singhal, watched play 'raat'. Written by the writer....i dont remember the name but he was dialouge writer of movie pardesh and DDLG. play was ok-type.

Hoh! Finally mai ghar nahi gaya. already i struggled to go there....but situations are against my will. So, I'm doing soem creative stuff here. Today I customized a web forum. Have a look..........http://members.lycos.co.uk/vikashkumar/forum/

So many things

So many things to write but enthu nahi hai.
feeling tired....I'm alone in the wing.....everyone else has gone home.
Let me listen loud music.....................